Monday, November 22, 2021

The Old Christmas Story From "The Last Storyteller" Now on Audible!

 The Old Christmas Story

Would you like to hear a good Christmas story? Settle into a cozy chair with a warm cup of cider, embrace the words and we will go there together. Can you see that house over there, the one with red brick walls, white shutters, and a large oak tree towering in the front yard? Inside that house, there is a young girl who has lost hope this Christmas season. Her grandmother also lives there; this is her story, this Christmas story you hold in your hands. Can you see that window just to the right of the oak tree? That is the kitchen window. The girl and her grandmother are in there now. If you go stand by the tree, you will hear her story. I will go with you if that’s okay. The grandmother has propped the window open just enough to cool the Christmas pies. You can enjoy their sweet, enticing aroma as you listen; you will think you entered Heaven’s bakery! But you mustn’t touch. Just listen.

                                                    _________________________

“What do you wish for most this Christmas?” Her grandmother asks.

Carmen thought for a moment. She didn’t want to hurt her grandmother’s feelings, but Carmen already knew this Christmas would not be like the ones of the past. Grandpa had died in the spring of the year, and her grandmother had moved in with her family. Grandma living with them really wasn’t so bad—Carmen had to share a room with her little sister so that Grandma could have her own room—that wasn’t too bad, her little sister looked up to her; Carmen kind of liked that. And Grandma was a good cook, making something out of nothing was her specialty.

In August, her father had lost his job. That was a big problem. He was working now, but not making as much money. Mom said they had fallen behind on so many bills it would be well into the new year before they caught up. Carmen knew to have a nice Christmas was more important for her little sister, Beth. Beth was only seven years old and not old enough yet to understand words whispered by her parents—past due bills, making ends meet, robbing Peter to pay Paul...pawn tickets.

Her parents had never discussed things like finances with her. They were always very careful to speak about such things only if the children were not in the room, even when things had still been good. Her dad was always saying, “Let kids be kids. No reason to make them grow up too fast.” Mom thought he was being over-protective. Dad said that was his job. If they knew how many nights, she had stood in the hallway listening, they would have been upset. 

Carmen turned thirteen this year. She was a teenager! When her mother had sat down to talk about this year’s Christmas, telling her how difficult it would be to surround the tree with gifts, but carefully avoiding the reasons why, she had felt very mature. Very grown up. (And just a little sad.)

Carmen thought about her grandmother’s question. The truth—she wasn’t looking forward to Christmas at all. If she could have anything she wanted for Christmas, she would want things back the way they were. Life as it was before grandpa died; before her dad lost his job. Carmen wanted her parents to answer the phone without fear that it was another bill collector calling. She wanted a pizza that didn’t come frozen in a cardboard box. She wanted the whispering to stop, the secret listening to end. She wanted her own room back. “I don’t know Grandma; I haven’t thought a lot about it.” Sounding nonchalant., Carmen offers her best smile.

Her grandmother smiles back, taking in her oldest grandchild. She admired Carmen’s long dark hair that flows past her shoulders. Her own hair had been like that so many years ago. Now it was short and silver, very grandmotherly like.

“How about a really nice brush? Your hair is so beautiful, and you should care for it with the finest of brushes.”

“That would be nice Grandma. But I have a good brush. Besides, you shouldn’t be spending money on such things. Dad said we should all be saving in case the unexpected comes again.”

“Your father is just like his father. Penny-wise to the last breath.” She told her. “But it is Christmas! A time to embrace the expected. A time for joy. A time for putting smiles on the face of children.”

“That’s right, Grandma…children. I’m not a child anymore, you know. I am thirteen, remember? Besides, I can’t get excited about Christmas this year.”

“No!” her grandmother cried. "Don’t say that, Carmen! Christmas is the most wonderful time of the year. Not just for the presents and Christmas music. Not because of the decorated trees or family reunions or the wonder it brings. Every year, Christmas marks a new beginning. It brings us hope for the future.” Her grandmother had walked over to the kitchen table and sat down across from her granddaughter.

“Christmas is for children. But children come in all shapes and sizes…and ages.” Her grandmother’s smile fades just a little.

“Mom said there won’t be a lot of hope in the New Year. She said it will be sometime before we get caught up on things. It hasn’t been a very good year Grandma.” Carmen sighed, playing with the waffles on her plate. She felt little like eating.

“Your mom may be right, only time will tell. But that is not the kind of hope that I am speaking of.”

A puzzled look came over Carmen’s face.

“The hope, the sincere hope I speak of, is the hope which came with the very first Christmas.” Her grandmother picked up a fork and stabbed a piece of waffle from Carmen’s plate, “Someone has to eat it.” She said plopping the morsel into her mouth.

Carmen knew what was coming next. Grandma could find a reason to talk about the Bible in just about any situation. Every Sunday, since she had moved into their house, Grandma invited the girls to come to church with her. Carmen’s parents didn’t attend church very often, maybe Easter and Christmas. But they didn’t mind Grandma extending her invitation. Carmen’s mother did tell her it was the children's decision to go or not. Beth went with her grandmother every Sunday and sometimes on Wednesdays too, if she didn’t have homework. Carmen had only been a handful of times, but she had attended Vacation Bible School over the summer…that had been loads of fun. But getting up early on Sundays to go and listen to someone talk about things she didn’t understand, just wasn’t for her.

Just as she knew she would, her grandmother began speaking about — “Carmen, do you remember the story of the first Christmas?” She asks.

“Yes. I have heard it many times. You tell it every Christmas Grandma.” Carmen said matter-of-factually.

From the stove. a tea kettle whistles a tune.

“Ah, the water is ready,” Grandma said, “Would you like some hot chocolate? It is a perfect morning for a nice warm treat.”

She didn’t wait for her granddaughter to answer; walking to the cupboard she removed two Santa mugs from the shelf and made the chocolate drink. Carmen could see the steam rising above the ceramic Santa cap.

“Marshmallows?” She asked.

“No thank you.”

The little round lady with the silver hair returns to the table sitting one hot mug in front of Carmen.

“Now tell me, what do you remember about the Christmas story?”

Carmen felt irritation trying to surface. She didn’t want to be rude or short towards her grandmother. All she wanted to do was to finish her breakfast and then go find her friends outside. It had snowed enough to have an epic snowball fight—boys verse girls!

“Grandma I have heard that old story so many times. It’s about a baby, his parents, no room at the inn, and about three old men bringing gifts. Blah, blah blah…”

As soon as the third “blah” left her lips Carmen regretted it.

“I’m sorry Grandma,” she said, “it’s just that the stories from the Bible are hard to understand, with all the “thee’s” and “thou’s”. I guess maybe when I am grown up, I will understand them better.”

“That may be true, Carmen. But did you know that old story is about children?”

Carmen’s brow crinkled with wrinkles, looking amazingly like her father deep in thought.

“I know there is a baby…”

“Well, there were two babies. Mary, the mother of Jesus, had a cousin named Elizabeth…”

“Just like my sister!” Carmen exclaimed.

“Yes, just like your sister. Well anyway, an angel named Gabriel appeared before Elizabeth’s husband, his name was Zacharias. Gabriel told Zacharias Elizabeth would have a baby, a boy. Their son would be called John.”

“I don’t remember there being a baby called John,” Carmen said.

“Well, there was. But the Bible tells us his story after he is all grown up; that would come much later. Gabriel, the angel, told Zacharias, “And many of the children of Israel shall he turn to the Lord their God.” And he did! He was called John the Baptist.”

“I remember reading about him.” Carmen chimed. “Were there any other children in the Christmas story?”

“Oh yes!” Grandma said, snatching another bite of waffle from the plate. “There was Mary.”

“Mary? Jesus’ mother, Mary?” Carmen asked.

“The very one.”

“She wasn’t a child, Grandma.”

“But she was! Historians believe she was just fourteen or fifteen years old. Mary was just a little older than you Carmen.”

“That is very young to be a mother, isn’t it Grandma?” Fine lines of concern cross the young girl’s brow.

“Well, things were much different then, Carmen. I do know this; God chose Mary to be the mother of Jesus. And that is all I need to know.”

“Two babies and Mary. Were there more children, Grandma?”

“There was. But let’s not get there too fast.” She stood to top off her cup of hot chocolate. From the counter, she spoke—

“You remember Carmen; Joseph and Mary had traveled to a city called Bethlehem to pay taxes to Caesar. Many families had also come to the city to be counted in the census. The town was very crowded, Joseph and Mary could not find a room in which they could spend the night.”

“I remember, they had to stay in a barn!” Carmen called out.

“Yes, a barn or a stable,” Grandma replies, returning to the table with a fresh mug of hot chocolate.

“That must have been awful for them Grandma.”

“You would think so, wouldn’t you? But it was that night, in a dirty old stable, God brought into the world a very special baby. A baby who would change our world forever. There in that old stable, with the animals as witnesses, Mary gave birth to a baby boy. Then gently, she laid him in the manger to keep him warm. She would name him Jesus.”

“We have a nativity under the Christmas tree, Grandma.” 

“I know, I saw it. It is quite exquisite. It reminds us of the reason we celebrate Christmas.”

“You said there were more children in the story.” Carmen’s earlier reluctance to talking about Bible stories seems to have faded away.

“And there were. In a field, not too far away from Bethlehem, there were shepherds watching over their sheep. They would keep watch the whole night through to make sure no uninvited beasts would harm the flock.”

“Oh, what kind of beasts? If there were children in the field, they must have been so afraid. Were there children there, Grandma?” Carmen had scooted to the edge of her chair, clasping her hands together.

“Yes, there were children, and they were afraid. But not how you might think. Many of the shepherds were very young, like you Carmen. From an early age, the boys were taught by their fathers to protect the family’s flock. And on that night, over two thousand years ago. the Angel of the Lord appeared before them. Oh, those young boys were so afraid. They had never seen such a sight.” Carmen’s grandmother pauses, sipping her chocolate, looking out the kitchen window at the snow falling from the gray skies, the flakes dancing for just a moment on the chilly air before descending to the snow-covered ground. Her eyes sparkling at what she sees.

“What did they do Grandma?”

Returning her attention to Carmen, “They listened. The angel spoke to them saying, “Fear not: for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, which is Christ the Lord.” Reaching across the table, she closes her wrinkled fingers around Carmen's hand. “Oh, my dearest granddaughter, can you imagine what a sight this must have been for those young lads. In the dark of night, an angel appears and tells them that the Christ has been born!”

“What happened next Grandma?” Carmen asks.

“Suddenly, the sky filled with angels, heavenly hosts, singing praise to God—peace on earth and goodwill toward men.”

“Do you hear the bells they’re ringing?” Carmen sings, “I know that song Grandma, we sang it in choir this year.”

“And it was wonderful.” She replies. “After the angels were gone, the shepherd boys knew they must go to Bethlehem and see the baby who would be a King. Leaving their sheep, wasting not a moment, they ran to Bethlehem.”

“Did they get to see him? Did they see the baby Jesus?” Carmen was sitting on the edge of her seat again.

“Well yes, they did. So now Carmen, tell me—what have you heard so far in this old Christmas story?”

“What do you mean Grandma?” Carmen asked.

“Did you hear the hope?”

Carmen sighs, “Hope? No, I don’t think so.”

“Well let’s look closely. Joseph and Mary had to leave their home…just like I did. Only for a very different reason. Regardless, leaving home is terribly difficult. You see, Carmen when you leave home, you leave behind the things memories are made of. Joseph and Mary didn’t even know where they would stay when they arrived in Bethlehem. But God made them a way. And certainly, new memories. Incredible memories. Just like he did for me.”

“Here, in our home!” Carmen said.

“Yes! And now I will make new memories! Joseph and Mary would never forget that night, I am quite certain of that.”

“Did Joseph lose his job like my dad?” The young girl asks.

“I don’t know about that. Joseph and Mary had to travel all the way from Nazareth to Bethlehem by foot. That’s almost eighty miles. Now during their journey, which probably took about seven or eight days, Joseph wouldn’t have been working. So that young couple would have depended on God to provide for them. Just as He does for you and your family!”

“Wow!” Carmen exclaims.

“You see even when we go through challenging times, God still provides us hope. If we believe in Him. If we trust.”

Carmen sits silently, thinking. Tilting her head, she asks, “What about the barn animals? Did they have hope too?”

Her grandmother smiles, patting Carmen on the head. “Not like us.” She thinks for a moment, choosing her words, “I do believe they knew something special was happening. A new King was to be born. They gave up their room just like you did for me. They moved away from the young couple and watched silently as a miracle was born right in their midst.”

“Wow! Pretty cool.” Carmen smiles again.

“The animals accepted the infant King into their home just as we must accept Him into our hearts.” She blinks away a tear.

Carmen was looking across the room, thinking, “What about the shepherd boys, Grandma? What about their hope?”

“Well, I didn’t finish the story now did I?” Smiling, she wipes her cheek, "The shepherd boys traveled all the way to the City of David, Bethlehem. When at last they saw the baby Jesus, they were so amazed.” Her Grandma pauses—looking at her grandchild.

“And when they had seen, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.”

“What does that mean Grandma?”

“It means, my dear child, they traveled everywhere telling everyone the good news—a child had been born in Bethlehem, a child who is Christ the Lord.”

Her grandmother pauses again. “It is only with hope…Christmas hope…that one could carry such a message. And it is only with belief that one can have such hope!”

The old woman stands up from the table and stretches her arms high above her head. With a little yawn and a quiet smile, she looks out the kitchen window, over the pies and to the old oak tree —smiling, she asks “Do you believe?”


Saturday, September 4, 2021

Whisper Dancing


 Whisper Dancing, the third collection of short stories in The Last Storyteller trilogy is available in paperback and electronically. The Audible edition will be available October.

Whisper Dancing

Follows is an excerpt from the title story-


The child was ill most of time, perhaps the cold floor took more than it gave. One year, Patricia Mae fell ill with pneumonia. Her mother had saved pennies, hiding them away in an old milk jug, in hopes Christmas morning would include candy for her children. Carrying the milk jug under one arm and little Patricia under the other, Emma trudged through the muddy streets of Eastie with her head bowed against the wind and stinging sleet, to the only physician practicing in East Boston. A gentle man of sixty (maybe seventy), bent at the waste, wearing wired spectacles balanced on the tip of his bulbous nose. His hair as white as snow, and his voice barely a whisper. The good doctor waived his customary fee when presented with the milk jug half-filled with pennies. His nurse, a young girl from Scotland, calmed the small child, Patricia, by making silly faces and singing nursery rhymes while the doctor administered care. The young nurse, Ailisa Barrie by name, fascinated the small girl. Patricia Anne giggled at her Scottish accent and silly faces. Secretly, Patricia wanted to be just like Ailisa. A dozen years later, her dreams come true. She realized the only way out of Eastie and the crowded two-room apartment (although by that time only four of the seven children stilled resided there) was to go to nursing school. Massachusetts General Hospital had opened a nursing program a year earlier. Patricia worked diligently and was accepted into the program on the eve of her 16th birthday. Four times a week, she woke before the sun peeked over the Atlantic, and walked the dark streets of Eastie to catch the first ferry to Boston, home of Massachusetts General Hospital. The night sky was her only companion when, after a long day of learning the skills of Florence Nightingale, she boarded the last ferry back to Eastie. It was during a return trip home she met the young man she would marry, Thomas, “Red” Quinn.

Quinn, riding the ferry every day to work in the booming textile industry, possessed the same determination to escape the poverty of East Boston as his future bride did. The textile industry paid twice the wages of that of a boat builder and promised futures not more boats.

Each evening, as the ferry crossed the harbor, he would stand next to Patricia, holding onto the rails, secretly hoping her hand would brush against his. Gazing across the water and sharing his dreams of one day attending Harvard and hers of becoming a nurse, Thomas Quinn fell in love with the girl from Eastie.


Monday, August 23, 2021

By One's Hand

 

By One’s Hand

 

Oh, Death where is your ring?

How many more moons will crown the vault of Heaven

Ere’ your folded, flesh-starved fingers

Surround bells that toll

 

Will you approach, hearing my cries

Rising from the depths of despair

Begging for you specter

Longing to taste your stale breath

Across my lips

 

Cruelly ignoring my last song

Tarrying within the darkness

Of wicked reverie and irrevocable return

A sneer scintillating deadly desires

 

Oh, Death lay bare how long

Ere’ the blade in my hand’s

Querulous path draws forth

Crimson streams freeing the scars of misery

Discharging the captor called Opium

 

Come, whisper caustic rhymes in my ear

Exhaling breath tainted

With the stench of annihilation

Usher me into your bosom

 

Persuade my wavering hand

To carve away

Etching an endless trail

Of miserly shame

 

Doing what the gods have denied

Doing…

What I have been unable to do


Friday, August 20, 2021

POSITIVE TEST

 

Peculiar words crawling over the pages of my journal

Leafs of beige bound by counterfeit leather

Small enough to rest within my palm

Masks, quarantine, isolation, Covid, Alone

Lyrics scribbled upon blue lines traversing

Three hundred and more pages, one page for each day

Turning back the ink-smudged pages

A quest for what I have forgotten

Notions pilfered by a thief in the night

Named Rum


To page twenty-six I turn

The day you left wearing your blue mask

Stained by tears of unknown fright

“It is just the sniffles”

I proffer

From behind my unmasked face

 

You wanted to believe me

More than the three-letter castle of mandarins

More than the bespectacled practitioner

With a silly name and fat wallet

More than the curve refusing to flatten

You wanted to believe

 

 

You didn’t believe

Donning your blue mask

Saddled by purse overflowing

With vessels of purity

You left me

 

Page thirty-one

You called to talk to me

“It is just the sniffles”

I vow

“Come home, to me”

I am tired of being alone

“I cannot” you cried

Poised on the line between manic and truth

 

Page sixty-seven

A text-no voice

Punctuated with a red heart emoji

“Come home” I reply (no emoji)

“I cannot”

You lie

 

Page ninety-nine

Just a X

Scrawled in burgundy stain

I may have been drunk

Ask Rum, he never lies

 

Pages one-hundred and beyond

Echoed words defining a new norm

No one really likes

You do not call me anymore

(Or text)

 

Blank pages


Suddenly something new

Page three-hundred and eighteen

A fresh word

Vaccine

 

Page three hundred and nineteen

You toss a text, smiling

Vaccine Vaccine! Wear your mask and run!

Followed by a flexing bicep emoji

 

“For the sniffles?”

I reply

 

You don’t

 

Page…today

New words—

Positive Test

For you

And your mask

And your purity in a bottle

And your Vaccine Vaccine

And your leaving

Me

 

Sniffle, sniffle


Wednesday, August 18, 2021

 











Mankind

If mankind

Peers into the eyes reflected upon silver glass

Spurning egos nestled deep inside

You would know my Image

 

If mankind

Sets his ear against the winds of early morn

Traveling endlessly from east to west

You would hear my Voice

 

If mankind

Would rise above this mutinous orb

Mocking all desires

You would realize my Mercy

 

If mankind

Opened their hands releasing all worries

Escaping upon feathered wings

You would feel my Grace

 

If mankind

Holds my creation against his beating heart

Exploring the knowledge found in every seed

In every valley, on every mountain

You would know my Name

 

If mankind

Will…

You would know my love

Thursday, June 10, 2021

New Cover. New Content.
It was time to finish her story.

Going Numb

 
"Why are you doing this?" I asked her.

"I want to go numb," Addison replied.

For twenty years my wife battled an addiction to prescribed pain killers. Opiates disuniting her from a husband, from a family and from God. Slowly her need to go numb replacing all else. This is her story. And mine. A story of how faith was challenged as I walked through life with an addict, entering into valleys where the light never shines. Two decades of searching for hope in the dim, jagged Valley of Opiates, where doctors carelessly dispense the coveted painkiller without guilt. Over and over the opiates conquering her mind, until one day, she fell. It was time to write her story.

Monday, April 12, 2021

Glass Lover

Cold glass against my palm
Fingers embracing memories
Curled in anticipation 
Grasping what you hold inside
Amber liquid glistening under a bare bulb of secrecy
I listen for intruders who will take you away from me
Unwarranted fears wrapped in phony concerns
Hidden behind their smiling faces
Whispering words disguised as encouragement
They don’t know you
I lift your mouth to my lips
Your bitter-sweet aroma invades my nostrils
A relic of nights holding a glass lover against my pulsating heart
Abandoned by all others, you never forsook me
I have longed for your taste
Your warmth violates every nerve 
Until the room spins like Dorothy’s Exodus
I fall upon the land of dreams of white nothingness

Blacked out again
Until we meet again
Under the bare bulb of secrecy

Thursday, February 18, 2021

Her Name Was Lola

 

What do I do now? It’s not as if this crawled up the path like a sloth on Valium. Getting old is a process. An unavoidable process unless…well, unless you die before you reach the age of “old.” And who determines when that is? Not the dying, the getting old. What boxes do you check? Physical changes? Graying hair, wrinkled skin, sagging middle (not to mention other areas). Forgetfulness. Check. Check. Check. And check. I am old. Been that way for a while, but never wanted to admit it or face the ugly truth. Sitting in the dark long enough has a strange way of opening your eyes. I am not being metaphorical. I am literally sitting in the dark. Dark and cold. It’s been that way, off and on, for seven days. Second week of February, the month of love and dead flowers. A winter storm like south Texas has never seen. It looks like those idiot progressive tree-hugging-climate-changing morons were right. Day one, it was beautiful. Snow falling on dead Bermuda grass, turning my backyard into a winter wonderland. Day two, around dusk, the temperature dropped into the single digits. Things lose their beauty when cold turns to frigid. On the third day we didn’t have any degrees. Below zero, two words rarely heard in this part of the country. The wind-chill added misery to misery. The weather girl seemed almost giddy standing in front of the green screen with words blaring—

WIND CHILL -40 DEGREES! STAY INSIDE!

 The power went out shortly after that. Haven’t seen the giddy weather girl or her helpful hints since.

The power was off and on. More off than on. They call it rolling blackouts. It rolled down hill like a boulder, crushing anything in its path. When it came on, usually for about twenty minutes, I plugged in my cell phone and laptop, made a fresh brew of coffee, and toasted a muffin. I finished the muffin (with lukewarm orange marmalade) just as the lights went out again. Cable was out, no reason to turn the boob-tube on. My neighbor, an old fart and not very sociable, had his stereo or CD player turned up full volume. Each time the electricity came back on I heard- 

“Her name was Lola, she was a showgirl, with yellow feathers in her hair…” Same song, over and over. Catchy tune. Gets stuck in your crawl. Until the thirty-first time hearing it. Then it just grates. Who sang that damn song? It’s on the tip of my tongue. Forgetfulness—Check. 

Neighbor’s name is Arthur Lupin. Lupin, like the cat burglar in Sherlock Holmes. He drinks too much and plays his music too loudly. I think he might be dead. Fourteen hours without lights or heat this time. It’s not rolling anymore. More like D.O.A.

Arthur Lupin is old. There is no arguing with that. He uses a walker and drags an oxygen tank behind him. I should go check on him, but if he ain’t dead I would have to listen to him tell me about the time he fought in the Golden Gloves Championship. He is old and a liar. I googled it. No electricity for fourteen hours, but it has been longer than that since Lola, with yellow feathers in her hair, graced the airwaves. He is dead. Got to be.

Day two of the Winter Storm of the Century (the news people feel like they must give everything a name), before the temperature dropped to single digits, I went out in the backyard and built a snowman. I was acting like a little kid. Building a snowman and catching snowflakes on my tongue. Except, I had to sit down several times to catch my breath. 

I was hoping to build the snowman with my grandson. He has never seen snow. His momma (my youngest daughter), and the boy went to her friend’s house. He has a fireplace and running water. She would have stayed with me if I asked her to. But I didn’t. I saw the writing on the wall. I sure miss that boy. Playing in the snow with him, making smores by candlelight, telling scary stories with the lights out (not too scary, Grandpa), would have made this more tolerable. Well, maybe next time.

Sunday morning, when I woke, the lights were still out. It must have been forty degrees inside. Can’t know for sure because the smart thermostat ain’t smart enough to stay on during a blackout. My smartphone told me it 4:30 and minus 1° outside. Sitting on the side of the bed, I said a prayer to God. I figure he can hear them no matter how cold it is. Then I remembered I have a generator out in the shed (a light from God!). I bought it a few years ago for a camping trip. It’s not one of those big ones, but it was better than what the utility company was giving me. I dressed, three layers. Don’t know who came up with that rule, but I wasn’t arguing. The padlock was frozen solid. I knew a generator was behind the doors to that shed and I couldn’t get to the damn thing. Back inside, I grabbed my disposable Bic lighter off my desk and carefully navigated the slippery slope back to the shed. Did you know it is impossible to flick you Bic while wearing gloves? My hand about froze off lighting and relighting that little blue lighter with a Cowboys helmet on the side. It took a while with the wind blowing, but I finally heard the lock drop open. I had to move some boxes and a wheelbarrow with a flat tire out of the way before finding the little orange generator. The little red gas can that I would need to fill the little orange generator was empty. I was feeling a little sick.

I made breakfast. Cold English Muffins and cold day-old coffee. Wouldn’t recommend either. I fell asleep on the sofa. I woke with a crick in my neck and my hand still hurting from the gloveless adventure. If the electricity came back on, I had missed it. I checked my phone and still had better than 50% battery life. I wondered why my daughter hadn’t called to check on me. For that matter, none of my children had called. That’s my fault. I don’t share feelings and such with my kids. I figure they have enough problems of their own. No reason to worry about mine. I hope they are okay. I could call them, but I need to preserve the battery in case of an emergency. Like the neighbor dying. Who are you going to call, Jimmy? Another sign of getting old—talking to one’s self.

Sunday and into Monday, the power came back on every few hours. I managed a surprisingly good routine. Plug in the phone and the laptop, brew fresh coffee and cook whatever there was to eat that would take only a few minutes to reach the edible stage. Monday evening, the power was on long enough to cook up some bacon and eggs. I wanted some peaches with dinner, but the lights went out before I could open the can. I haven’t owned a manual-twist the top off-can opener in more years than I can count. After supper, I bundled up and sat on the back porch with a lukewarm cup of coffee, enjoying the beauty of this unexpected and rare winter wonderland. I placed a cigarette between my trembling lips (the only vice I have left). I knew I would have to remove a glove to ignite the Bic, but the anticipation of nicotine was greater than the fear of frozen fingers. The lighter is dead. Nothing but sparks. I tossed the coffee, the unburnt cigarette, and the useless Bic into the snow. Over the next few hours, I obsessed over ways to light a cigarette. No matches in the house. The only lighter was dead. I considered rubbing two pieces of wood together of finding flint and rock and pounding them until the life giving (nicotine giving) flame jumps forth. At the end of the mania tour, I accomplished only one thing; I need to quit smoking—two things—I am not a good outdoorsman.

On Tuesday, I read the “Book Thief” when there was enough light in the house to see. Lupin’s Lola only made a couple of appearances that day. Loud and proud. The interval between lights on and lights off was getting much longer. I still couldn’t remember who sang that stupid song. I’ve run out of muffins and coffee. I forgot to charge my phone. When the power came back on briefly Tuesday night, I plugged it in. A missed call from my daughter. I went to bed early, nothing else to do. I couldn’t sleep, too worried about an empty medicine bottle sitting by the bathroom sink. I took my last pill. The ones I take to help me breathe. PSA—smoking leads to C.O.P.D. PSA number two—don’t run out of your medicine.

Yesterday was bad. Everything left to eat is either in a can that I can’t open or spoiled. I chewed on uncooked spaghetti noodles. This moment of genius brought on a coughing fit. I can’t find my inhaler. I think it might be under the snow. My daughter bought me an oximeter last year after I spent a week in the hospital. My O2 sats where down to 94 when I woke up. After the attack of the spaghetti noodles, it dropped to 91. I slept almost all-day Wednesday. The showgirl named Lola serenading me to sleep.

It is freezing. I can see my breath. I thought of getting out of bed to fetch more blankets. My sats dropped again, so I will just lay here dreaming about the Copacabana, the hottest spot north of Havana…

Manilow! Barry Frickin Manilow!

I am old.

O2 sats-87

What do I do now?


Saturday, February 13, 2021

Winter has made a most unusual appearance in south Texas with temperatures predicted to fall into single digits. Armed with a cup of hot chocolate and a thick sweater, I sat down at my writing desk to pen more stories for the third book in the Storyteller series-Whisper Dancing. Below is an excerpt from the title story. Enjoy! And if you do, please take a virtual jaunt to my author's page (J Hirtle Books) and pick up a copy of one of my books. Thanks in advance and stay warm.


From "Whisper Dancing"

“Someone broke you heart?” Clara asks.

“No.”

“You answer too quickly. You are lying to me, Jimmy Quinn.” Peering through the keyhole, “Who was she? Who broke your heart?”

He can feel her eyes watching him. Turning away before answering, “She didn’t break my heart. Life did. Her name is Laura. Life broke everything when we moved here, away from Cambridgeport. Not long after, she wrote me and told me she was moving to Texas with her father. Her mother died from the flu. I haven’t heard from her since. I may never see her again.”

“Perhaps you will. Did you love her?”

“No. I don’t think so.”

“And yet your heart aches.”

Silence re-enters the rooms separated by a door locked by greedy capitalist. The space behind the wardrobe grows darker with the withdrawal of day. The young pair, unknown to each other just hours before, lost in thought, consider what the future may bring. Jimmy breaks the silence—

“There was no music.”

“What do you mean?” Clara, whose name means bright and clear, asks.

“When you were dancing. There was no music. You have a music machine, but no music.”

Clara laughs. “Music machine! It is called a phonograph, silly boy. Have you never seen one?”

“Of course. I just didn’t know…”

“It doesn’t matter. The phonograph…the music machine does not work. The gears are broken. But I don’t need that stupid thing. I can hear the music.”

“Like in your mind?”

“No, not in my mind. I can hear the music, just as I hear you.” Clara places her mouth close to the keyhole, “The music whispers to me, Jimmy Quinn.”

His heart jumps. Who is this girl?

“Whisper dancing?”

“Yes! Yes, that is what I do, Jimmy. That is wonderful! Whisper dancing! You are a clever boy Jimmy Quinn. I would give you a hug if not for this stupid door!”

“Jimmy, supper is ready,” his grandmother’s voice interrupting the revelation.

“Come back tomorrow, young Mister Quinn. I look forward to the intrigue.”

 

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